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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

i hate you HD

here we go again... what i've been scared the most is just happened today... that's very bad i guess... i felt so terrible, being so damn fucking bad! i've been humiliate with someone i trusted on but i guess i'm totally wrong bout him... i really don't know how stupid it is... i felt so sad, depressed, frustrated, mad, angry, disappointed and everything goes into in my heart... OMG... i really can't expect this would ever happen... i really feel like dying right now...

i'm wondering why could he did this to me... sampainya hati kau buat aku macam ni... kau tahu tak ini adalah satu penghinaan pada aku? kau dah malukan aku depan orang yang tak sepatutnya tanpa satu sebab pun yang membolehkan kau buat macam tu! kau tak ada hak sikit pun nak jatuhkan harga diri aku! aku rasa sangat bodoh sebab percayakan kau!

kau ingat senang2 je ke aku nak maafkan kau hah? aku benci kau! kalau sampai orang tu jadi benci kat aku sebab benda ni, kau akan menyesal sebab pernah buat aku macam ni... kalau kau nak tahu, kau memang silaplah sebab malukan aku macam ni... kau tak kenal lagi siapa aku... i swear u will pay for it!!!

Monday, December 28, 2009

he's the reason


after so long im not posting my wtf stuff here... i would like to start on something new... i hate myself to be in this stupid situation... i hate myself for letting the stupid feeling happen... i'm a real loser... well it wouldn't happen if i know to control myself... to control all the feeling in my heart...

i'm asking myself so many times... why it's happened? and so many why, why and why? however the biggest question mark is for WHY IT MUST BE HIM??? he is my friend and i shouldn't fall for him...

but the thing is... he always be the reason for to smile... he always be the thing to miss when he's not there to see... i know it's so stupid to feel that way... but it's hard for me to stop it... and the most stupid is i felt bad to have it in my heart...

well, can he tell me why i can't see anyone when he's with me? i wonder if he knows that he's all i think about at all times...

we're getting far now... i have to pretend that i don't really care about him... there's no more stalking around... there's no jokes between us... there's nothing... and all i know is i'm always wanted to be with him... to hear his jokes... he's always be the reason for the stupid things in my life... i love it but i hate it...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

SWEET EIGHTEEN

haih... there's happy and sad part. firstly its my first birthday without mama and ayah. rasa sayu pon ada. walaupun i tau diorang tak lupekan i but im still hoping that we can be together at this moment. whatever it is... im really thankful that Allah still giving me the chance to live. Alhamdulillah i can still see the moon and the sun. i can still laugh and cry. 18 tahun memang rasa sekejap tapi sepanjang masa tu terlalu banyak naik turun and susah senang yang i tempuh. honestly it was not an easy journey for me. terlalu banyak dugaan yang i lalui. but still ada jugak yang fun. i feel really great to have so many people that wanted to share their love with me. thanks a lot guys... my life would sucks without all of u. well... i hope i can change to a better person in the future. i wish i can achieve what im targeting. so many wishes and i hope Allah tak marah. in fact i sangat berharap Allah akan fulfill kan. ok la... to all buddies that wishing me my birthday... i can only say thanks and i really appreciate it. love u guys so much...

LIVE LOVE LAUGH

Sunday, September 6, 2009

G.U.I.L.T.Y

i really dunno what to say... haih... i know its not fair for him. firstly i memang main-main nak kenakan dia. but how to say ya. i yang terkena. i pon tak faham y. well i got to know a guy. i used to talk to him as when i need him. we used to talk so many things till he said that he fall for me. omg i memang tak sangka its so happen like that. i know it sounds really normal but like i said just now i nak mainkan dia. so... i pon buat2 la terima dia. yang teruk lagi dia dah betul2 nak serius with me. sampai dia cerita semua about his life. dari situ i dapat tahu yang he got problem with his life. dia dah tak ada ibu. dia ceritalah semua kesedihan hidup dia. i jadi kesian sebab i tak honest dengan dia. i dah mainkan perasaan dia. i tipu dia. i know i memang kejam. tapi i really tak sampai hati nak bagitau dia the truth. lagi teruk sebab dia pernah cakap kalau i pergi dari hidup dia. dia sure akan mati. dia sangat baik. dia ada semua ciri lelaki yang semua perempuan nak. tapi sayangnya bukan i. i betul2 tak boleh buka hati i. cukuplah sekali i pernah hilang orang yang i sayang dulu. i serius takut pisang berbuah 2 kali. susah i rawat hati yang pernah hancur satu masa dulu. i tak rela ia jadi lagi.

sorry.. bukan niat pape. just want to share...

Thursday, September 3, 2009

girls next door



this is my room. it's simple but nice. firstly it was so hard to adapt from house to a hostel. honestly house is much more better than hostel. lots of things need to be done on my own. baju nak kena basuh sendiri. makan pon kena beli sendiri. kadang2 penat jugak la. plus dah la duduk tingkat 4. fuh memang pancit.


i just wanted to share some of the angle side of my room. a bit messy cus hidup kat matriks memang macam ni. agak kelam kabut. everythings need to be fast and rushing. yela kan setahun je kat sini. mula2 memang huru hara gak. tapi lama2 da biasa.


well, i used to stay with another 3 roomates which are AISYAH, FAFA and SYAZIE. mereka semua ok. its just they are not in the same course as mine. so a bit problem when it comes to study matters.


as a conclusion is i got so many new experience of being here. i found so many people with so many actions. we're come from different states but we're still the same. we're sharing the happiness, laugh and joy.


sayang korang semua especially budak2 wing A aras 4.

burst!!!

well this may hurting. sorry for that. how am i going to start this? erm.. im in a big problem now. being in matrix was really hard for me. in the first place im doing this for my future. the thing is.. now my mum at my nenek's house. nenek yang urus mama sekarang because dah tak ada maid. now can u imagine that? sepatutnya i yang jaga my mum. but i just can't do that because im here at matrix doing my study. what kind of daughter am i? selfish?! ungrateful?! maybe im the next si tanggang.. i feel like dying when thinking all this. somehow i think i need to back off from my plan. yela kalau mama boleh berkorban nyawa lahirkan i. then siap susah payah besarkan i lagi. tak salah if i berkorban pulak. tapi how bout my dad? i know ayah sangat berharap i dapat segulung ijazah tu. tapi..ntahla. semuanya masih dalam pertimbangan. hope i can solve this problem asap.
Ya Allah... berilah petunjukmu...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

blok A3.4.5

well, its been so long i've never write here. been missing huh? frankly speaking i prefer to be in my hometown rather than being in this town. just imagine the bad looking block in the picture is where i stay for about a month. i can't believe i still can survive there. ouh im still trying to get in through the extreme hot temperature there but hujan ribut taufan when the night comes. terrible aite? i know. fyi, i stay at level 4 which is the highest level ever. sumpah memang pancit when i reached my room. adoink! but the bright side is the block is considered as the nearest block to dewan kuliah, bilik tutoran and cafe. Allah memang adil. hihi.. fyi also, im not skipping from my study this moment. its getting busy here about the pilihanraya JPP (jawatankuasa perwakilan pelajar). there's a manifesto at the dewan for the science students. and me? akaun sudah menang tanpa bertanding! haha.. calonnye seorang jur. ntah pape jur la.. ok la, gtg..

with love,
maizura moksin

Sunday, May 10, 2009

last words for my LOVES


haih! maybe this might be my last blog before i go to matriks tomorrow@11/05/09. seriously i look like i'm really cool and act like nothing happen. but only Allah knows what exactly in my heart and my mind. well maybe i can say that i'm a bit more matured so i can calmly think what's going in my life now. or in other side i can conclude that maybe i'm heartless. errmm. i also don't know which one is definite.

tomorrow would be a new chapter in my book of life. the only things that i'm really worry is my mum. even there's bibik. it's still can't ease me. even i can call her everyday but i still can't see her, right? omg!!! 3 days i left for a camping last year, made her losing perfectly her spirits. and now 1 year? gosh! i can't imagine what would happen to her. Ya Allah.. please take a good care of my mum.. sesungguhnya aku ini sedang menuju jihad dengan niat keranaMu..

mama, even i know u would never could read this, but 1 thing i knew u would never could stop missing me cause i am in your shoe too. mama, i'm doing this for u and ayah. i've never done many for u but 1 thing i really do is i want to make the 2 of u proud to have me as a daughter. my journey has just begin. please pray for my success. i LOVE u, mama. i love so much. mama only have me in her life. just me. and i need to leave her now. if i could choose, i would never do this to her.

to my besties, kak peed, oiesh, nyameen and the others specially my relatives, i'm not asking so many here unless please look over my mum. even she would say she's fine but i know she would lie. please. i'm begging u guys please do this one for me. just this one. i'm not asking more i promise. if u guys free, check up on her. i'm thank u guys from bottom of my heart for doing it for me. hanya Allah yang dapat balas kebaikan kalian.

ya Allah semoga ini jalan terbaik untukku dan berikanlah keberkahan bagiku di dalamnya

Friday, May 8, 2009

new page





well. it's hard for me to realise that i'm turning 18. time running thru so fast and im just not ready enough to venture the creation called life.


im going to live on my own without my super duper extra ordinary MUM. i mean i have to live far away from her. MAMA is everything to me. i love her so damn much. i think she is the only one that means something and precious to me. i don't mind to lose anything or everything but not my MUM.

what is the diferrence between who am i and who i am?

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

pimc[B]abe



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i am damn fucking happy today. i have waited for so long to gather this very very important babes together. even there were 2 other members could not make it, there's still happening and laughter at all the time. we're just missing each other like deadly. well everyone's is busy to get ready for our next move in further our studies. today for about just a few hours spent to make a promise that
WE'RE BESTEST FRIENDS YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER.
i love all of them so much.

p.yqa
i.ena
m.ien
c.ikien
b.aby
a.yu
b.iela
e.cha

they are the colours of my life

Sunday, May 3, 2009

MY BIG FAMILY

From left; Sir Abdul Rahman, Sir Aidid, Ms Azrina, Ms Hidayah, Ms Zabrina, Ms Fieza
Arasu, Suria, Rahman, Ayu, Warith, Maizura
Isma, Azwan, Maizatul, Shafie, Yasmin, Saiful
Afiq, Hidayah, Kadir, Fazira, Shukor, Al-Amin
Awie, Iwan, Zul, Haider, Hafdzal, Yunus(not real)

where to start im also don't know. the past 4 months was a moments which i just can't forget for the rest of my life. so many things came and gone through it. i learnt so many things there
@ Secret Recipe City Square. from a 'trainee' to 'mai' wasn't easy for me to went through it. i had up and down there. somehow it was a very hard for me to went a step forward which called working.

from the very first time i decided to go for an interview i am setting my mind it's just to fill my free time while waiting for my SPM result. well things just not as easy as i thought at first.
but it's just not a reason for me to stop my step. i learnt it was uneasy to serve customers there. i could see so many type of people. there were good, fine and mean people. i learnt the hardness to fight to gain money.

within that, there's challenges when problems came up such like run away bills, complains and conflict with my colleagues even with the leaders. the past 4 months were incredible for me. even at the half way of my working i felt like surrender, out of control and etc etc. i found a big family there. we're belong's together. we work as a team. we manage everything as a team. there's tears and laughter. there's sadness and happiness.

29/04/09
it was my last day of working and im damn fucking sad to leave the big family there. the past 4 months was very meaningful for me. i would never forget what i got from there. even i've been attack with whipped cream, egg, mushroup soup and etc etc as my farewell party, i don't even mind.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND I LOVE YOU GUYS

Friday, May 1, 2009

rules are made not to be broken



even lots of plan changed everywhere. but still i had fun there. betul kate wani. that place was kinda dread. uh, RM35 so not worth it! duh! but after all, just fine.

well, im just want to share the funny part when we went for a tube ride. that thing can be ride only by 2 persons. but then, there's 3 of us. so kinda pity if left the other one behind. so we decided to ride together.

all of sudden, the tube slide out of control. speed pon incredible la. DUSH!!! the tube terbalik and the 3 of us pon terpelanting. aduh! cuak habis! the other 2 keep on shouting. and me? shout sambil gelak! WAWAWAWAWAAAAA!!!!!! but seriously diorang act out of control gak. yang sorang jerit "SLOW-SLOW-SLOW-SLOW". yang sorang siap berjalan dalam tuh. haa, ni lah suka hati buat rule sendiri. PADAN MUKE!!!

the worst part is just about the food. DAMN FUCKING SALTY!!! whoa! boleh dapat high-blood pressure siot! haih!

the most exciting ride is only the family raft. i wish i would never go there again next time

Saturday, April 25, 2009

240409/1145


FROM THE LEFT: EN. MOHAMAD ZAID BIN HARON, YASMIN NABILAH, BROWNIES WALNUT.
P/S: ABG AIDID TAUGHT YASMIN ON CUTTING THE BROWNIES.

LAST WORDS FROM ABG AIDID TO ME...

YOU HAVE 7 SMILES...
1. When you are joking.
2. When you are happy.
3. When you are laughing.
4. When you care about someone's feeling.
5. When you get some advise.
6. When you get payment.
7.When you're eating a slice of peach cake.

p/s: actually its mango cake. ehe!

ABG AIDID IS THE COOLEST MANAGER EVER

Thursday, April 23, 2009

silly maizura

just want to share what im up to. its been so hard situations here. its about my feeling. i admit its very complicated. well first part is i dont have any feeling towards this one guy. he's just a friend of mine. we've been together as normally friend. all of sudden, he told me he's admiring my friend. i dont know what is it but i felt like dizzy something. and guess what? MAIZURA MOKSIN IS JEALOUS!!! i also dont know what the hell is that. haih!

second part is there's an irish man. he loves me but i dont love him. but 1 thing i admit I LOVE THE WAY HE LOVES ME. i love to be with him. he always there for me. he always cheer me up when im down. but pity him. i just dont have the love for him. i know its not fair on his part. and i told him so. but he's still waiting and waiting and waiting. sayang, no promises ok.

still searching for the right one

Monday, April 13, 2009

stupid me

Toilet Sign

today, i've done something very stupid. when the flashback starts i just can't stop laughing, laughing and laughing like dying. guess what? i just went into a men's washroom! agagaga! i know it's damn stupid, right? it's so happened at the puteri pacific hotel.

by the time, i was so busy with my stuff and my cell phone just ringing. and i really wanna pee (dah tak tahan siot!). pick up the phone call and just enter rushingly to the washroom. suddenly, i am shocked to see a guy there.

i was wondering what the hell is he doing in the ladies toilet?! OOPPSS!! when i turn around another chinese guy entered. alamak! and the guy said "ini lelaki. perempuan sana lah!" i felt like dumping in cow pie. hish! i just went out and went to the right one. pee with big laugh!

dah la that chinese guy handsome nak mati and i know him; CORVER

Sunday, April 12, 2009

i can't believe it

First Aid

OMG! i just don't believe what i've done. fyi im scared like dying to see blood. but today, for the first time in my life, i just did a first aid to my colleague; EPOL. he had a minor accident when he was on the way to work. there were few injuries on his arm and knee.

my humanity instinct just exploding. i can't stay doing nothing there to help him even he said he was fine. he is just like my lil brother there. so i washed and cleanned up the injuries. put some betodine on it. well i did it. i did face the fear in me.

please, i'm not writing this to show off or something.

OMG, diet hancor!

Nasi Ayam

today in my history i ate one plate of chicken rice with two pieces of chicken! i also don't know why it's happened. i felt like tempted by the fried chicken. erm, nyummy!

mak cik jual nasi ayam mesti shocked tengok i

Saturday, April 11, 2009

what on earth are they?

Long Black Coffee

Flat White Coffee

it's so happened to me. huh. damn it! well there were 2 chinese customers (orang tua) came at my work place Secret Recipe. they asked me for coffee. i asked them weither they want white or black coffee. they said white but without creamer. hello? white coffee have creamer in it. then i told them so. then, i've suggested the black one. they agreed. so i'd key in their orders.

when the coffee serve they called me. they asked me this is not a white coffee. duh??? like what the @#$%??? they want coffee without creamer? but they still want the white coffee. by the time i felt like want to kill them. God, please help them not me. siap report kat manger lagi. ouh, please! arghh!

susah-susah they jadi waiter biar i jadi customer

Thursday, April 9, 2009

we're done

i'm exploding right now! kalau ye pon kau dah kemarok sangat ngan laki kau tuh. tak payah lah sampai nak gune ayat-ayat cinta aku. setahu aku orang kalau dah sayang mesti terlebih idea nak ayat orang tersayang tuh. tak adelah nak plagiarize aka COPY CAT ayat orang lain babe! eh, sendiri mahu ingat lah! please jangan jadi buta, tuli dan bodoh kerana cinta.

and the best part untuk kau adalah kau dah berjaya keluar dari top listed BFF aku. kau berjaya hancurkan hati sahabat kau neh. sekaligus berjaya musnahkan friendship kite. fyi aku dah penat dengan perangai kau yang memang tak pernah ambil berat tentang hati dan perasaan orang lain terutama orang yang bernama sahabat terlebih lagi aku lah orangnya.

selama berbulan lamanya aku cukup teramat sangat tahan dengan perangai kau. tapi bukan detik ini. sekarang hati aku dah mati untuk kau. -sahabat lebih penting daripada boyfriend- BULLSHIT! to all babes and dudes out there. trust me it's not going to works! for details kamu semua bolehlah cari EX-BESTFRIEND aku neh untuk belajar -bagaimana cara untuk menghancurkan persahabatan-

wish u have your own dream of satisfaction

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

99.9% losing her


well, it seems to be very bad to share this. i hate this part right here. i know it would be so selfish of my side. but i don't even really mind. what's important is i'm just tired of being dump! what the hell are u doing? don't u even think about my feeling? i hate u! i hate what u have done to me. u know what? now u can just forget about the title BFF. u don't deserve it anymore. if u are thinking that your boyfriend is more important than me and our friendship, u can have it. we will see how long does it takes for u to realise what is the value of friendship.

hey come on lah! orang lain pon ade boyfriend, sis!


don't tell me i never warn u.

Monday, April 6, 2009

bubu junkie



well. i have so many bubu out there. basically bubu is just a name. but it is not just a name for anyone that means something to me. special thanks to my nyameen aka yasmin nabilah for letting me to share the name. if there's anyone wants to be my bubu. you are most welcome buddy!

you are nobody until you be my bubu.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

how if i don't even being taught?


Give a man a fish, he'll eat for a day. Teach a man how to fish, he'll eat for a lifetime.

well, i would like to ask anyone of you here. do i look like a bad person? definitely you guys would say NO, right? i know maybe it could be a stupid fucking question. but here we are. i just want to share what i'm in to. first thing first, i would like to say sorry if there's any sensitivity matters mention here. it's a true story ok. i mean it's all happened to me personally.

this thing happened at my work place. actually i'm preety unconfortable there. just imagine if you are in a place that no ones think that you are exist. somehow the bad turns worst when you are not being appreciate. they were just thinking that i'm not important.

i think they do called and talked to me whenever they like and after that they dump me just like a trash. apart from that, i am damn really sad and hurt so much when they disparage my ability. they don't even give me a chance. well, if there's a chance given to me but i am not qualified enough. then, i'm satisfy to back off.

next, so many times it happens when they blame me wasn't for my fault but for others. i'm always used to say this "ye la, i ni kan jahat. sume yg salah mesti i je la yg buat." when i used to said that my heart was just exploding. i'm really really down to earth. but they just don't even care about my feelings.

please take notes. i am a human being too. i have feelings too. i want to be appreciated too. maybe it's wasn't really their fault. maybe it's all my fault. well, if i'm the one who really wrong here please let me know. please. people do mistake, right?

i'm not writing this to make you guys sympathy towards me. i'm just trying to share my sadness. i'm just trying to let go all the things but i really don't have the strength to do so.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

anugerah pelajar cemerlang SPM

dad:MOKSIN BIN MUHYE

After all things happened between me and my dad, what is the only thing I want is to make him pround and happy. Life offers more than a fair share of twists and turns for aspiring fathers. If you knew better, would you not have been a better father or a better child to your father? I guess so.

When I was a girl of eleven, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be eigthteen, I was astonished at how much he had learned in seven years.

What do famous people have to say about fathers? What was the influence of fathers on great men and women?

There's something like a line of gold thread running through a man's words when he talks to his daughter, and gradually over the years it gets to be long enough for you to pick up in your hands and weave into a cloth that feels like love itself.

It doesn't matter who my father was, it matters who I remember he was.

i love the way he love me

REAL BEAUTY APPEARS ONLY WHEN YOU HAVE A SMILING FACE SO ALWAYS SMILE. Silence on lips may avoid many problems. But, smile on lips may solve all the problems. So always have a sweet, silent smile.

Some times ur existence gives hope to one person,
Your smile may be a pearl for someone,
Your presence might be the desire of the 1 who loves YOU dearly. SOMEBODY LIKE ME.

Most Men Only Listen To Only 10% Of What Women Say. But The Successful Ones Are Those Who Figure Out Which 10% To Listen To.

HE make ME smile at all times.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

this is not mine. an irish guy gave me.

Of all the friends I've ever met. You're the one I won't forget. And if I die before you do I'll go to heaven and wait for you.

What can I say? When u shower with your trust, when you don't just recognise friend values, but also applaud them. When you show your confidence. What can i say? Under the sky so blue, I met someone so true. Now the world seems something new, Someone very special among a few. I'm really glad that God gifted me, A sweet friend like you.

Don't judge your loved ones by the way they speak, Judge them by the way they care, Because care is outcome of true LOVE in any Relationship.

My love for you is like Niagra, Falling countless… The beating of my heart, For you is so heavy and soundless, feeling of being in your arm is so Precious.

No poems, no fancy words I just wanna the world to know that I LOVE YOU my princess with all my heart !!!

Any Man Can Love
A Million Girls
But Only A REAL MAN
Can Love One
Girl In A Million Ways...

Do you only love whom you have seen? or you love when you see? or love before you see?

i miss my friends deadly

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. The same goes for true love.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned that two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned that the people you care about most in life are sometimes taken from you too soon.
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts
I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned all how if she doesn't?

Saturday, March 28, 2009

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Before start looking for love you must first know yourself in depth. It is very important that you know where you come from, who you are and where you are heading. If you do not know yourself, which are your tastes and preferences and if you are unaware of your dreams, it is very unlikely that you can find a person that comes along with you in this wonderful journey called life.
The definition for love is not easy. Every culture in history had a different definition for the word but I will try to give a very wide one.
Love is a deep feeling of affection for someone else. Love usually comes along with affection, respect, admiration and a constant need to be close to the one you love. Also –this is very important- love comes in both ways. You cannot be in love of someone who does not even know you exist. That is most likely to be an obsession but it is not love for sure.
Love is both a psychological and chemical process. It all begins with lust. Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes matingand involves the release of chemicals such as testosterone andestrogen. Then comes the attraction. Attraction is the more individualized and romantic desire for a specific candidate. In the attraction process, the brain releases many chemicals which causes effects like loss of sleep and appetite and an intense feeling of excitement. For many schollars this stage last no more than 3 years. After the lust and attraction stages comes the attachment. Attachment is the bond that allows the relationships last for decades. The attachment is reached with the sum of variables such as marriage, children, friendship and common interests. This lead us to our first premise. If you are looking for someone to love try also to find a very good friend. That friendship creates a very solid and lasting relationship.

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